100th Post =)

ok, so lets make this post a lil' more meaningful(since all the rest didn't really make sense. heh.).

i think there's something wrong with me, like i'm having this major mood swing right now. its like i wanna luagh, i wanna smile, i wanna cry, i wanna shout.... all at the same time. i duno, its weird.

& i realised something today... it's hard to smile when you know it won't mean anything to the other person. its hard to smile when you know that person won't smile back, much less take notice of that smile. its hard to smile when you know it won't make a difference. it's hard to smile when you know you can't turn back time, & you cant undo the things you've done...

after all, how much can one single smile do? when innocent people are hurting, are suffering... i wanna change all this... but what can i do? smile? really, how much younger i am then anyone reading this, im not that naive... wishing by itself that all this will change, really only exists in fairytales. & perhaps its just too bad reality isn't a fairytale...